Bye Bye Daddy

Micah travels, what sometimes feels like a lot. I get that he has to I do, and I don't complain when his check gets deposited in our account.  He was gone last week and he is going to be gone again soon...

When he's traveling I have to admit that somethings fall through the cracks, like Mason eating cheese for dinner while I make his dinner...

and Mason decided that he needed to cover his face with Butt Cream

The boys end up taking more bathes, because of  how filthy they get everytime I turn my back

When Micah is gone it sucks, it seriously sucks!  Somedays I feel overwhelmed, and tired, and then I see Mason do something hilarious like the butt cream, and I remember to just laugh at life and take a moment to breathe. 

Sometimes, I am just not quick enough!

Mason took dinner into his own hands

Lullaby and sleep tight... hmm hmm hhhmm

Why is it that we always want what we can't have... right now I am obsessed with sleep!  I want SLEEP!  The amazing pre-child sleep of the dead, the kind that you have before you grow up and have adult stresses...  Do you remember that sleep... I do with such fondness *sigh*

Sleep of the innocent...

Sleep of the angels...

I like my babies best like this, I can quietly sneak into their room and scoop them into my arms, and do what all mothers do, listen for the sigh, that perfect beautiful sigh that quiets the fear. I worry, I am a worrier and I need the quiet reassurance of those sighs.  I check on them before I go to bed, I take them both in my arms and whisper things that mother's whisper to their sleeping babies, and re-tuck them into their beds...  I love those peaceful, precious  moments, that give me reassurance.  They remind me how very sweet my babies are when they sleep, and how grateful I am for 8PM bedtimes!!

I'm struggling, but I wouldn't change a moment

In High School I took Chemistry 3 times and finally passed with a C-, I got a B in biology because the kid sitting next to me had a crush on me and did all the lab work (I was that girl who got sick during dissection).  This term I signed up for a Bio bonds the  CO reqs for Anatomy and Physiology.  Bio-bonds is Chem 112 and Bio 112, its a years worth of science smashed into 10 weeks!  Right now I live in the Science Resource Center, science has always been Chinese for me and I am fighting to maintain my A in Biology and B in Chemistry.  As stressed as I feel and as much as I feel like I'm dropping the ball in other areas of my life, I LOVE school!  I love that I can feel myself growing and changing, that I'm finally doing all the hard things that I thought I never could.  I never want to forget how I feel right now!

I live by these quotes, there are a couple posted around campus and when I read them I feel inspired to work harder, to push through the pain!  I hope they inspire you!  I hope that you feel like you're doing the hard things...

Your persistence is your measure of faith in yourself. -Margaret Thatcher.


By persisting in your path, though you forfeit the little, you gain the great. -Ralph Waldo Emerson.